I must say everyone has unlimited
quota of insecurities ongoing inside. We get insecure when somebody has just
obtained first class degree while we’re still crawling hoping to be like them
one day but looking back to the current cgpa dayum hahaha (not me), we get
insecure seeing so many beautiful ladies scattered in our Instagram feeds and
tell ourselves why are we not like them, some close example I can relate and
this sometimes happen to me, is when we have assignment to submit on Monday but
on Thursday of the previous week people has started to ask you whether you’ve completed the assignment yet. Because they
have already completed them. *rolling eyes
I don’t like when people keep
asking me “farasye dah siap?, not because I did not notice they are trying to
be nice to me by showing concern, but
more to like, Guys! Stop asking me that question, I don’t have lots of time like
you guys have to complete the assignment that soon! This is all about the
insecurity embedded in me and I don’t like it.
But, this actually happen few years
back when I was in my first year. I can handle ‘that’ feeling already. You know
what I kept telling myself? Before that, we, ourselves need to understand our
condition! What have keep us from completing the assignment as soon as our
friend? Different people is busied with different kind of thing, apart from
assignment, we have another commitment to fulfill, and I believe I’m not alone
in this. Even my close friend is someone who gives her everything in the
organization she’s in. The pressure is rather intense especially when it
involves team work, you know that we’ve divided the task accordingly, so
everyone needs to submit their respective part to the person in charge who’s
responsible to compile all parts, so we, in this case who’s late to complete
the assignment feel guilty to the person in charge, we feel pressured because one,
we’re not able to submit on time, and two, we’ve made people waiting for us and
that remarks that we’re troubling our friend.
Well, what I kept telling myself
is, “farasye, they’re not busy like you. You’re not blessed with a lot of
time, but trust God, you’re blessed with something else maybe you did not
notice. What matters is you finished you part sincerely, qualitatively (by
avoiding plagiarism)”. If we know that we’re going to be the last to submit
our part, volunteer to be the responsible person to compile. Another thing to
note is, usually when we have to rush to finish the assignment, we cannot
think, we do not do the work wholeheartedly, we start to copy and paste from any
references we get and that sucks. So, bear in mind, you got time, settle it by
providing space for yourself, you can do this, nothing will get in your way.
So the people who initially make we
feel insecure is not wrong, they don’t even know that we get insecure with
their words. We, need to settle down, use our brain, think rationally, do not
let our emotions and egos blind our brain. Of the insecurity I had when I saw
many adorable figures on Instagram, I stop following them. Again, they’re not
wrong, they just do what they feel they want to do, I in my sense feel that I
am easily influenced with whatever they have whatever they wear and that is so
gonna make me spend a lot too on things I sometimes don’t need, get insecure of
not having what they have. So I get rid of them, I unleash my own talent, I
grow up, be mature, stick with my principle, and be great! As of note to
myself, I want to be great because I like to feel great not because I want to
be looked as great. Do you get me? Hahaha
Whatever it is, be confident with
what we have, it’s not wrong to have someone as our inspiration, but hey! Do not
force yourself to be 100% like them, because you can’t. You can only be you,
maybe a better version of you blended with some inspirations you get from them.
So, good luck!
Till then.
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